I started off April talking about mom guilt on MotherHustle. I think every mom does battle with mom guilt at some point. What I’ve come to realize is that the reason why I feel guilty is because I worry that I’m not giving enough of myself to my kid, my husband, to school, or to my writing… But there’s only so much of me to go around, so instead of feeling guilty, I need to remind myself that I’m doing the best I can with what I have! I need to stress less and enjoy these days, because they’ll be gone in a flash!
And I really have been trying to enjoy myself. I got to go to Florida for a weekend and surprise my best friend for her 50th birthday. Aside from FaceTime and Snapchat, I haven’t seen her since #ToddlerGoodwin’s first birthday in 2016 – almost two years! She had no idea that I was coming to visit, so the look on her face was worth the trip! We only had a couple days together, but we picked up right where we left off. I needed that trip!
I also got to take a trip to Boston again for school. I spent a Friday morning walking all over campus and then went on a shopping spree at the Harvard bookstore. I met up with a friend for dinner Friday night and then had classes on Saturday and Sunday.
In other news, we started potty training #ToddlerGoodwin last month. Man, I thought having a baby was tiring. Then I thought when he started crawling and walking that I was tired from having to chase him around. Now I am just freaking exhausted from stressing out over this potty training. He’s doing better than I thought he would, but I’m not holding my breath just yet! Our next big milestone: moving to a big boy bed. But that can wait.
I’ve been sending out queries for my latest project, so we’ll see what happens there. (Not holding my breath with that, either!) I’m just trying to make it to the end of the semester… only a couple weeks left! I will have a month off before starting my summer class. I plan on spending the time outlining a new story and brainstorming thesis ideas. And doing a lot of playing with #ToddlerGoodwin!
Reading: All Souls by Michael Patrick MacDonald. (My professor for class at EXT. It’s an amazing memoir and it was such an honor to be in class with him!)
Listening: MTV Unplugged – Bleachers